Is it just me or is everyone a little on the cranky side this holiday season?
We were talking about this last night at the Holly-in-Our Hearts Holiday Hullabaloo here at Chez Tewkesbury. Everyone I talked to said, to a person, that they were having a hard time catching the holiday spirit this year.
I can't finger whether it's a product of day-to-day life that seems to move faster and faster as the years progress, leaving little time or grace to just slow down and enjoy some quieter moments. Or, maybe it's a result of mass marketing and over-stimulation with ads that yell and urgently proclaim "Consume! Consume! Consume! For tomorrow we die!" Perhaps it's this year's holiday calendar which started with Thanksgiving; it felt like it was a week earlier than normal, thereby making Christmas feel like it's also a week earlier than it should be.
I don't know. What I do know is, I wish it was January 1 already, because I'm tired of this year. I've had enough of 2007. In the years of my life, this one was disappointing in so many ways and the most overrated, as far as years go. I'm not trying to be a downer here and I'm not suggesting there haven't been highlights and happy moments. It's just that this year has been underscored by a level of weariness I've not experienced before. Even my most hellish, worst year--professionally, academically, and personally--was better than this year. I'd take September 2000-September 2001 over again any day compared to 2007. (And anyone who knows me and that particular period in my life, knows that's saying a lot.)
Twenty-oh-seven has been the year of merely existing and surviving for me and that's just plain yucky. A friend of mine wrote the other day, "Life becomes lively when I participate instead of watch." That's going to be my mantra for 2008. That's what I'm going to be again: a participant in life. An active, engaged, out-there woman who doesn't hold others back and isn't held back either! (And in truth, the only one holding me back is me. So, I'm gonna bitch slap myself like Cher and snap out of it!)
Adios 2007! Here's looking at 2008...