Here's the thing: Until I'm in a position to open my own flower shop, I want to get back into publishing. I'm willing to start again as a managing editor and work my way up. I'm even willing to take a $10K pay cut to get back into a line of work I really enjoyed, was successful in, and performed well in.
The part about taking a step down in title doesn't bother me as much as the step down in salary, which is what led me to noodle. I've worked really hard to get where I am in terms of responsibility and pay, so why should I take a step down?
That's when I had the epiphany: I'm selling myself short.
At least, I think I am.
The fact is, I've had very positive experiences as a manager and supervisor, as well as positive feedback on my leadership and mentoring abilities. That, in itself, ought to be worth something. Yes, I still want to be part of the creative process, but I'd also like to be part of positive leadership. Is it possible to do both in a non-floral setting?
I don't want to sell myself short. At the same time, I'm not interested in a repeat of the last three jobs I've had.
The pros of working as managing editor again are:
- I'd get to be part of a creative process.
- I'd get to produce something that has a tangible quality.
- I'm part of a process that has a clear beginning and an absolute end.
The cons are:
- I'd have to answer to someone who could end up being a psycho, a prick, a control freak, or all of the above.
- Any leadership skills I might exhibit could be misconstrued as me either not doing my job or attempting to take over the bosses job. Neither scenario is desirable.
I could make similar lists for management type positions, but the important point here is, while I'm willing to take a step down, it doesn't mean that I should simply do so for the sake of getting back into the thing I enjoy doing professionally. Surely I can do both--be a part of the creative/publishing process again and use and build on my leadership and mentoring skills.
Or am I wrong?